What am I transmitting

I cannot learn energy consciousness and not apply it to the force of my attitudes. I can’t learn the law of cause and effect … (just) so I can draw to myself what I want – I have to also think, ‘what am I transmitting?’ What am I transmitting in the law of cause and effect? What am I transmitting? I cannot be spiritually greedy, and use it as a form of spiritual capitalism.

I have to also think, my god, what am I transmitting? What am I doing and influencing in the field of energy? I have to live by this, otherwise all I am is a psychic mechanic. I am no different than a psychic mechanic who is learning to use their tools but I have no theology. I have no sense of God. I should be on my knees. Where is my theology? – I have zero.

All I want is the stuff the energy system can give me. Which is, for the most part, my experience with people. That’s as far as they’ve gone: the wallet. They have not taken it to the soul.